Anger

October 2018 D-Day

You lied to me, every day for months. You stopped giving one fuck about me, about the kids, about you. Why?

It's not your fuck up to hide. It's my truth to live. You played me over and over. Took everything from me. Left me out to die.

Gave it all to her. Over and over again. For what? Did you win?

What a joke....

dusting myself off

so on 01/23/17 i got offered $74k to move back home....i gracefully declined and since then i have been accumulating dust, depression, and self-pity. I've wasted a whole month, i will never get back. and now on 03/01/17, i can wholeheartedly say i am ready to move forward to bring better things into my life and i am open in mind body and soul. i am committing to being less distracted and more serene. i am open to the abundance that is out there for me :)

things are always working out for me...

Goals ~ Aspirations

Healthy Mind, healthy body, healthy spirit. 

For this new year, I want to keep my mind healthy and awake to allow me to make the healthy choices that will reflect on my body. My spiritual goal, is to mediate regularly and FORGIVE more. I am listening to Guided Mediations by Vishen Lakhiani. I plan to read Miracle Morning this month. And write a review. My next post will be my weigh in for the year with measurements. 

WIW 06/03/15

I am so sad that Pretty Strong Medicine will not be hosting. She's really a great girl to follow! I wish you much luck & love, Heather!! I really had a one-on-one with myself yesterday and decided that I should really try and co-host this thing, LOL, like I should really stop kidding myself and actually lose weight again! So here goes:

Height: 5'5"

SW: 259

Last Week: 230.2

This week: 233.0

Change: +2.8

Total Loss: -26.0

Back in Action

I've been coasting at 228.8 for months now....boo freaking hoo! I know! i know! So I am going to start charting my weight here like i did last year. 12 weeks! 30 lbs!! WE CAN DO HARD THINGS!

03/11/15: 228.8

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1st reward new workout clothes!

WIW 01/21/15

Hi! This is my first WIW of 2015! This is my new starting point to lose 50 lbs. by July 2015!

Height: 5'5"

SW: 259

Last Week: 230.2

This week: 228.8

Change: -1.4

Total Loss: -30.2

Hello 2015!

I'm back bidges!! I can't believe I was at 199 last Spring/Summmer. That is the goal for this Spring too! But this time keep the weight down throughout the Fall/Winter damn it!! I will start my first weight in on Monday, January 19th! Keep ya'll posted!