I can, I can, I can, I CAN!!!!

Yesterday, I sat through my Weight Management orientation. WTF, who knew these existed. DAMN! I actually teared up sitting in between my kids thinking HOW THE HELL have i done this to myself?! Don't I love myself? What the eff is wrong with me? Am I really sitting in a weight management class...Well, safe to say this is going to be a very emotional journey for me. I have let myself go for many reasons...excuses, really! I matter, I am beautiful. AND I CAN NOT put this off another day. The program I want to pursue is EXTREMELY expensive BUT sooo EASY for me. I was down to jump in last night and pay an insane amount of $$$ to get started, but I decided to sleep on it. Give myself some credit. I did graduate from college. I can plan. shit. out. So I am going to order 2 -weeks of the prescribed shakes. And follow the plan without a professional. And this is where this beeeeautiful blog comes in...and I will hold myself accountable to the ZERO readers I have and to my pretend friends until I can afford the actual program I want to enroll in next year. HERE GOES nothing! My first task it schedule a doctor's visit to complete all the required labs to start the program. Then up my FSA contribution to cover my costs for my program next year! 2014 you will be my bitch!!!!